In his most influential SMS, my former best friend Nahn, who abandoned me saying he cannot bear if I actually got murdered because he would then go into an unspeakable depressive state, said what’s important now is not smoking cannabis to relax my mind but enjoying alone time by myself in order to mediate and reach the satori state of mind which now came to me only infrequently over the past year; I guessed it was because I wasn’t meditating enough. Since I had been neglecting it, I guessed that my brain was “forgetting” the essence of transcendental meditation.
Reading through my journal made me realize that it was important for me to be strictly rational and unemotional – if being unemotional is possible for a species like us sapiens which seems enslaved by feelings.
“Try to constantly remind yourself that this is how everything exists. The universe is THE place that will exist whether there is a Creator or not. The things in it are just there and there are no questions of HOW or WHY matter and energy exist. So, try to stay out of the unnecessary drama people around you get engaged in and you then should be fine with a relaxed and calm mind,” Nahn said in his final message.
Actually, that was not his final message; he sent me an email later out of the blue to warn me of a certain pusher who was allowing a group of homophobic gang to hang out at his house to smoke pot.
