Sunday, June 16, 2024

Chapter 26

Are strangers just a beauty that we come across and then lose to the crowd, never to see again? What a melancholic thought. A poignant feeling.

Why do we long to be with them? Do humans been sociable account for this wanting to hang out with them, or taking a notch higher, long to be in romantic love with them and even have sex with them? Why not go further with notions of marrying them and considering having children with them?

But what if, after we are settled with them, we develop a crush on other people, and want them all to our self? Is this how the idea of a harem in heaven was born to the Islamic ideology?

A "lonely hearts" column I read in a British newspaper said the mindset of people like me may be that "mind sluts" like me could be striving to bring closure to unattainable crushes we had in childhood. I somewhat agree with that: if God allowed, I would like Him to let me have my own harem in heaven.

But there's a glitch in the system: not all of them would fancy me. If they did, we could have been together in our Earthly life itself. So the only thing I could ask God is to create men who physically resemble the men I liked on Earth and make them fall in love with me.

However, herein lies another problem: would I feel comfortable lusting after a man who is not lusting after me through his own choice? Or is there a choice at all? Do people get attracted to one another due to a coercion by Nature for them to feel that way? If so, does it matter if there is the hand of God making us fall in love with the people we do? And would I feel happy being in love and lust with virgin lads in heaven who only resemble the Earthly men I liked only in their outer shelf?

I guess then I should not be shocked that in the movie "Eyes Wide Shut" Nicole Kidman's character, who is married to Tom Cruise's character, confided to him that there was a time she became so enamored with another man that she actually thought she was capable of abandoning her husband by throwing all caution to the wind and going after that new man - whatever risks that came with her decision.

Is our slutty mind capable of abandoning our children we have through our marriage just for the sake of pursuing a crush? Is crush a form of love? Is romance too a form of love? What is love exactly? And what about the supposedly non-sexual affection?

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